I got a call aboout all the blood tests. I was excited, I just knew she was going to say everything is fine. Except she didn't. The big bad test I had came back positive. It can be an indicator of Lupus and now I must go have more tests and a x-ray and see a specialist. I called Michael to tell him and he didn't seem frazzled at all, just a bit quiet and reassuring, although I am not sure if it was for him or me.
I am really scared. I can't imagine a life full of tests and medication. I don't even like taking asprin. I know I should concentrate on something else but i feel like I have been given a death sentence and now must wait weeks for a visit with a specialist. This spells financial disaster as the test I had in one day along cost $1200. I tried to get insurance before this, but couldn't get approved because apparently PCOS is a pre-existing condition. It just seems unfair that the people who need insurance the most are the ones that cannot get it. What is wrong with our country?
