2008 a year to forget?

Yikes! Looking back on this year has been tough. Here we are on anniversary number 5, I couldn't honestly say it was easy. This year has been tough on our marriage, a very testing time. In January I started seeing my Dr. and she decided to run quite a few tests on me. In February one of those tests can back abnormal, a big bad scary test. So I was sent to a specialist and was told it was just fibromyalgia, although Lupus could not be ruled out permanently. Well OK then. After that Michael lost his job at the bank, they are experiencing some financial trouble and I think he was the easiest to cut as they have other people who can do his job too. But he got an even better job within a week, a huge blessing. God saw to my prayers and I believe that his bank job might have ruined us financially and ruined our marriage so the change was welcomed. While I was sick and going through test after test alone while Michael was with the kids, I didn't even think about what Michael was going through watching me. He became a little lost. We were able to get him back on track mid year and have a renewed sense of us. So here we are on anniverdary number 5, and hopeful for a much better year number 6.

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I love that Aidan was "playing daddy" today with my contact lenses...and he dropped one on the floor and then into the toilet, which he flushed. Hard to be upset with the little guy when he told such a cute, animated story.
I love that after weeks of trying to get Brady to go on the big potty, only to have him get off the potty and pee on the kitchen floor, all it took was moving the little Elmo potty to the kitchen to get him to do his business. (He was so proud, as was I)
I love that Aidan explains things to me like I am a 3 year old. Today for instance I asked him what Santa was going to bring all of us, he had something in mind each one of us, Michael if you are reading this Aidan said Santa was bringing me a new camera, I asked him how Santa knew what we wanted, he replied, he is Santa, then he told me that I must go sit on his lap and tell him what I want.
I love that Brady, my 2 year old, sings along and bops his head like a rapper to, GASP, Chamillionaire-Tryin to catch me ridin dirty & double gasp, Flow Rider's Low. (I know, its Michael's fault)
I love that my kids are excited to do crafts with me everyday. (our gingerbread house by the way is almost bare, candy seems to be vanishing at an alarming rate.)
I love the excitement in my kiddos eyes this time of year, its magical!
I love how wonderful my hubby is to have all my clothes off the floor and hanging in my closet last night after watching the boys while I was at MOPS.
I love that I feel so great about my marriage after what seems to be a very fast, almost 5 years.

Busy months

It has been hard to find time to blog of late, these last couple of months were so busy.
My anniversary is coming up, not sure what to do for my husband. I am grateful for my hubby and all of his support and love. I feel like in the last 5 years I have fallen in love with him over and over. It has been amazing to see him turn into a father and such a wonderful husband.
I feel so great about my marriage.

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BROWNIES

So today I made 2 batches of brownies, the first I screwed up badly because I was talking on the phone. MMMM The second is now cooling on the counter waiting for vanilla ice cream and hot fudge. Brownies are one of life's little pleasures!

A kid free night

So, last night was the first night in over 3 years that Michael & I had the house to ourselves, the kids slept over at the Grandparents! We came home after the reunion and were like, what do we do now? To anyone struggling with this situation, leaving the baby, DO IT EARLY! You will thank yourself for leaving them, it frees up time for the hubby and will benefit the kids too!
We are already planning our next night away, down at the Landing for some mild nightlife.(I don't drink alcohol.)
Reunion's and sleepover are one of life's little pleasures!

Also, tonight after a BBQ at my house, I went for a walk and it was dark out and just before I returned home I got to see a shooting star. I love astronomy, wish I could be an astronaut, or build a planetarium, but the little shooting star I saw tonight was such a PLEASURE! Thank you GOD!

10 year!

Last night was our ten year reunion and it was awesome! I had such a great time talking to everyone, many people I ignored when I was in high school. I always thought of myself as a very bitchy student, kinda remember picking people apart and laughing at people who were "devastated" because someone didn't like them. (maybe because due to my family circumstances I realized that they are much more important things in life than your social status in school.)
Anyway, it was a lot of fun, everyone looked so different, I think Michael & I looked pretty much the same, maybe a few pounds heavier, but who wasn't? It was so great to see everyone and hear about their lives and see their pictures. The only thing missing was a group dance scene to a boy band song! (maybe at out 20 year)

10 year reunion?

Wow, tomorrow is our 10 year reunion, and to think that it has been 10 years seems insane. Where was I ten years ago? Lets see, I had just graduated high school and was working at the Mickey Gilley Theatre and starting at College of the Ozarks in the Spring. Michael & I were dating still, also dating other people, but it didn't take Michael long to figure out he couldn't live without me. We bought a house, got married, and had 2 babies in these last 10 years, a very productive and successful 10 years. I am very thankful for the love he showers upon me everyday.

I still have nothing to wear, I want to look super hot, show off the 18 pounds that I have lost in the last few months. Still looking for an outfit to wear that shows off the good curves. I will post of picture of us pre-reunion.

There is something to be said about knowing someone so well. I can look at him and just know when something is wrong or super right, I know what he is thinking and we tend to be thinking the same thing. I am constantly telling him and vice versa, "I was just thinking about that." There are all those horrible mottos, "When 2 become 1", "You are a part of me", "My other half", but I find those all to be true. I am who I am because of the love he gives me, he makes me whole.

In the words of Jerry Maguire, YOU COMPLETE ME MICHAEL BIEDENSTEIN! (cue the music)

So tomorrow when I am alone with my husband, child free for an entire night, the first in 3+ years, I will just be thankful the last 10 years have been so wonderful to us, me and my other half, the one who truly makes my world shine. What a fabulous 10 years.

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A night alone in my house?

Michael took the boys so watch UFC with cousin Mase and Nate, so I have been childless for 3 hours now. I went shopping, by myself, found nothing but it was nice to shop without little hands pulling random items into the cart or needing to make 12 potty breaks, one of life's little pleasures.

I miss them, although, my laundry is still folded, the kitchen is still clean, and I haven't heard "I NEED" for hours.

Today we played with bubbles that were on sale at the Dollar General, what a mess. It was a lot of fun, we spent at least an hour outside blowing bubbles, some giant bubbles big enough to fit the kids in. Aidan suggested that we blow him in a bubble and let him float up to catch a butterfly, it didn't work, he just got bubbles in his eyes. Another of life's little pleasures!

Thank you for the food we eat

Thank you for the food we eat

Preschool is one of life's little pleasures!

Aidan started preschool early this month, and he loves it. We were worried he would be a crier or would just hate it, but he loves it. I love it too because it gives me quality time with Brady. We have gone to the library a couple of times and he makes me line up all the animals to read books to them. Then he takes a nap and I get to indulge in reruns of Yes Dear, which is by far one of the funniest tv shows ever. (Michael really needs to get me the dvds for Christmas!)

Today the sun is shining and its warm, I just want to go sit in the sun, I feel really sick today and I love to sit in the sun when I feel crappy. I'm not sure if its a virus of the fibromyalgia I was told I have months ago. I just love the sun today...and am thankful I am here to see it.

P.S. Today we met daddy at McD's and had lunch together and Aidan asked us how to talk to GOD. Then we put his hands together and prayed. How adorable!

Brady is one of life's little pleasures!

Brady, 2, is one amazing little man. He has a smile that will just light up a room. When he was a baby he didn't like to cuddle, which was hard for me because Aidan is a snugglebug. Brady wouldn't let you even hold his bottle to feed him, he would only eat propped up in his car seat, Aidan never held his own bottle. Brady now will just come up and bring his pillow and lay on me, or just come up and hug and kiss me. He is my little independent man, falls asleep on his own, sleeps all night in his own bed, and plays well on his own. Thank God for Brady!

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Wrinkle - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia: "With prolonged water exposure, the outer layer of skin starts to absorb water. The skin doesn't expand evenly, however, and this causes your skin to wrinkle."

Aidan and crinkly fingers.

So Saturday, Aidan gets out of the bath and for the first time in

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Life unscripted.

Michael was doing really great at the bank, even was presented with a special gift for doing such a great job. He had gifts given to him by all the customers, they LOVED him there. Until today. Michael came home early and I was teasing him, "did they fire you." Well turns out they did. His drawer was off and made an example of him. But honestly I don't think it was. With all due respect I think that because they are not doing too well financially that they set him up. He was in a position that was a supervisor and well, they knew they didn't need him anymore, needed to cut payroll and insurance out of their pocket. So, I really believe they set him up. That and because he is Mexican, he was never going to go any further there. I have been begging him to quit that job, he was under appreciated and under paid. I thank God that he intervened, because Michael is such a dedicated employee the only way he would leave a job is to be fired. Better things are ahead for him. He has already received a job offer for almost DOUBLE what he made at the bank. Thank you God!

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Seriously Bad

I got a call aboout all the blood tests. I was excited, I just knew she was going to say everything is fine. Except she didn't. The big bad test I had came back positive. It can be an indicator of Lupus and now I must go have more tests and a x-ray and see a specialist. I called Michael to tell him and he didn't seem frazzled at all, just a bit quiet and reassuring, although I am not sure if it was for him or me.
I am really scared. I can't imagine a life full of tests and medication. I don't even like taking asprin. I know I should concentrate on something else but i feel like I have been given a death sentence and now must wait weeks for a visit with a specialist. This spells financial disaster as the test I had in one day along cost $1200. I tried to get insurance before this, but couldn't get approved because apparently PCOS is a pre-existing condition. It just seems unfair that the people who need insurance the most are the ones that cannot get it. What is wrong with our country?

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